good news!

37 weeks

I went to the doctor last week and was really hoping to hear good news that Canaan flipped. I had gone to the chiropractor that same week and that seemed to help my back pain a little. The doctor couldn't really tell by just feeling if he had flipped, so I had a quick ultrasound to see where he was and HE HAD FLIPPED!! Now I'm just praying that he stays in that position.

I have had a million thoughts running through my mind as we just past Calvin's 11 month mark of his home going. I really thought I was going to go into labor that day-but I know God has already planned when Canaan is going to arrive. It still is hard for me to think that this same time last year we were going through the worst trial that we have ever had and this year we are rejoicing in the soon to be birth of our second son! God is good!

count down

Well the count down really has begun...we found out on Friday that Canaan is breech. The doctor said that we can try "version" where they try to move the baby from the outside. That is going to the hospital, getting an epidural and then two people pushing on your stomach to move him (sounds fun doesn't it). If that does not work they will end up doing a c-section. We are praying and hoping that he moves down by himself, but i have started researching ways to maybe help him. I am going to try and get to the chiropractor this week to see if I get adjusted if that will help him move. There is a technique call "webster's technique" that chiropractors can do just for breech babies, we are thinking about trying that too. I am not totally against a c-section I just feel like that is the only option the doctors are giving me and I feel like there are other things I can try first.

3 and a half weeks to go!!

baby shower

Last Saturday, Darby and Beck put on a wonderful baby shower for Josh and I. We ended up having around 100 people and we got A LOT of stuff. We are so thankful and blessed by everyone that came and showed us love as we go through this exciting time!

As you can see it was a truck theme!
We got many homemade gifts! I love them all!:)

All our goodies! It took just a little time putting it all away at home.We asked everyone instead of giving a card to give a book to start a collection for Canaan. We got a lot of good books! I can't wait to start reading to him.

canaan's room

So I have been working on Canaan's room for a couple weeks now. It has been a long process but I love how it turned out! I am now excited to get furniture in the room. Only 11 more weeks until he arrives!


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After

stocking up

Last year when I was pregnant with Calvin a girl at work gave me a coupon for diapers and wipes. When you used the coupon you pretty much got everything for free! So, I went a lot and stocked up. Here is a picture of my stock....

This year Giant Eagle was having a good deal on Seventh Generation diapers and wipesIt has been really fun stocking up on supplies. I think with all my wipes I will be good for at least a year!! People laugh at me for how much I have but I know that I am going to use it so why not!!

8 months

I cannot believe that today is 8 months since Calvin's homegoing. As I was sitting at work today missing my sweet boy, I was getting kicked by our little man Canaan. I was overjoyed thinking about seeing him in 16 weeks. Although I will always miss Calvin and how he has forever changed our lives, I can't help but thank the Lord for the trial that He brought Josh and I through over the past year. What a joy it has been learning to trust in Him and not ourselves. Knowing that He is in control of our lives and thanking him for giving us a healthy baby boy so far in the womb. What would life have been if I didn't know the Lord and was able to know and trust that Calvin is in a better place, perfect and with our Heavenly Father. I will never forget Job 1:21 The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord.

I am so thankful for this pregnancy and I know it will never replace Calvin, but it helps knowing that I will be able to hold and take care of a baby. That I will be able to do the things that other mothers do with their children and that I will be able to stay home and raise Canaan. God sure has blessed us more then we deserve and could thank Him for..

mothers day

mother's day...never thought i would have struggled so much. i miss calvin more then ever but i was just trying to think of today as just another day. then it hit me, i know that i am a mommy but it is hard to feel like it when you don't have a child to hold. i am so thankful that God blessed us with the 9 months with our sweet boy and now He has blessed us with the pregnancy of canaan. i don't thank Him enough for all the good things He has given us.