time is flying by

As 3 months has passed since Calvin's home going, I cannot believe how fast time is going. Hitting 3 months was pretty hard on me. It really was the hardest month yet, as crazy as that might sound. I'm struggling that I'm not pregnant yet. I have to keep reminding myself that it is not my timing but God's timing alone. Josh and I now have another new family verse Phil 4:6 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God."

As more people seem to become pregnant, I truly am happy for them but long for the day that i can be pregnant again. I am thankful for the time that we had with Calvin they truly were a great 42 weeks. It is great to know that he is in heaven safe with God but my selfishness keeps getting the best of me wishing that I had him in my arms now. What a great God we serve! I would not be able to get through each day without Him giving me the strength. He will get me through this trial as I continue to lean on Him.

I am so thankful for all of our family and friends around us. The continual prayers and encouragement that we receive. I am so thankful that God put all these people in our life. I have so much to be thankful for and continue to fight my selfish thoughts daily. This is God's plan better then my own, He is molding me to who He wants me to be! Isaiah 64:8 But now, O LORD, you are our Father; We are the clay, and You our potter; And all we are the work of Your hand.